I've made it! I lost 50lbs. I have never been so happy to visit my bathroom scale and so often. Now it's a friendly hello and no longer nervous, hold my breath, and oh no what is it going to be today, fingers crossed that one piece of sweet potato pie didn't ruin all my hard work.
How did I do it? What's the easy simple answer that everyone wants to know?
The truth is it started with truly forgiving myself for treating my body so badly all these years. And only then was I able to start my journey to healing my body and my relationship with my self image. I really never did like my picture being taken. I will always happily hide in the back, out of site and maybe you can catch a glimpse of just my smile. But more recently I have had to take more more photos and I'm not afraid any more. I actually can appreciate all my old pictures now and send love to the poor shell of a woman I was. She had problems, she was depressed, she was going thru a lot. And now, I'm so proud to be me. And love all that I've accomplished and look forward to every new day I get to accomplish something else.
I won't say, that your miracle of overnight weight loss happens at the moment you finally accept your life and yourself, with all your glorious unique flaws, and the perfect parts that aren't so bad and make everything else disappear. But something wonderful does start to happen. You want to treat yourself better. If you are like me, always trying to put everyone else first and attend to their needs and wanting the best for them. At the end of the day, the week, the month, the year, you look back and you realize you did nothing for yourself. And who really was taking care of you? And if anyone tried did you even let them?
This may have been my toughest struggle. Asking for help. Accepting that I really couldn't do it alone. It is still one of my life lessons and its finally sinking in that my life can be of even more value if it share it, and I ask for help. Then I have the support to reach my personal goals and have the ability to help others reach theirs. My life is so much more fulfilling now, with wonderful individuals that I care so very much about and they care about me. I may still struggle when help is given, but I'm grateful for the loving friends and family that will insist on me accepting their support, no matter how much I try not to take anything. I try to just accept their generosity and always say Mahalo, Thank you, I'm so very grateful.
My life is changed in so many ways. Mahalo for all your love and support that make me better every day. I look forward to being here for you. Don't be afraid to ever contact me. My life is one of service, if I can help, I will. Sending love and gratitude to everyone.
Mahalo,
Maile
